Tuesday, March 20, 2012

I wish nothing but the best for you. :)

It has been forever. :) Well, I just felt like escaping from structure and marks and essays to write what I really want to write. I stopped writing quite some time back and didn't really wana continue writing until someone special told me not to stop writing. I didn't really understand why she said that but after awhile it made sense. Writing not only helps me express what I feel, it also helps me visibly see how much I've changed in time. If you follow my blog, you'd notice that the way I write now is alot different to how I used to write. The older posts always reflects me, its always about me. In time, I realised that life is not just about me..in fact, its more about others and this has prompted me to write this blog.

Personally, I know I've changed. For the better, for the worse I'm not too sure. The point is, I've changed. People change, people move on. That's life right? Wrong. I believe the reason people move on especially when it involves walking away from the one you love is the fact that they understand that the other person's happiness is more essential to them than their own. I have alot of respect for such people because to me love is not about ourselves, its about the other person being happy even if it means that we'll only get to watch from afar. It takes alot to walk away from the one you love especially if they gave you so much to remember. But that is life, sometimes, memories are all we have left. Come to think of it, seeing them happy makes it all worth it right? :)

Another thing that has been on my mind is how people tend to rush into relationships and when things go wrong, rush out. I never got into a relationship in my whole life but I don't think relationships should be like that right? I mean, what if you wait for them cus if they loved you as much they'd probably wait for you as well. And when you understand that it wasn't easy to get together, you'd probably decide against splitting up for silly things. I've never had a girlfriend, not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing though. But I've always told myself that when I fall for a girl, I'd fight for her. I'd do everything I can to make things work for us. And, (this is very important) I would want her to fight for me as well. The reason most relationships or friendship fail is because its only one person doing all the fighting. It doesn't work that way, both of them should be willing to sacrifice and fight for each other. One day, if I do get a girlfriend, I wana know that she'd fight for me and that she'd not walk away at the first hint of trouble. I will sacrifice yes, but its only if she is worth it.

Why write this now you may ask? Well, I've been seeing people break up and get into relationships like its nothing at all recently. I mean, if it was that easy..everybody should be in a relationship now right? why wait for the right one? why try and be the right one? I don't get it, we contradict what we believe. Human nature I suppose,

The point is, life is not about us. Relationship and love is not about us. Friendship is not about us. Its about caring, loving and wanting the best for another before we even consider ourself. Its like giving the best part of your favourite meal to the other person every single time just because they like it too. The best part? Seeing them happy makes you happy and all the sacrifice is worth it. :)

Friday, January 13, 2012

An honest question

You really don't know what you mean to me, do you?

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Ignorance is Bliss,

Ignorance, we're all guilty of it at some point. Remember that blind man we let cross the street by himself? The puppy that was waiting to die on the middle of the road? We always wait for somebody else to do it. It doesn't make any sense. If we are all created for a purpose and we keep waiting for someone else to do it, aren't we a waste of His time?

Well, you may ask..why this sudden rant? This is not a rant, It is something that has been on my mind for sometime now. I don't get how people are so insensitive towards issues and we all seem so comfortable playing Xbox while someone is dying and how writing an exam becomes more important than feeding a hungry man. Worst still, we bad mouth the not-so-fortunate sometimes even without realising it.

I come from the not-so-fortunate background but I gotta say that I am alot blessed than many people. It frustrates me though, when somebody comes up with an ignorant comment about a certain group of people or even a topic. It shows an utter lack of respect and its sad how the community has conformed to this as a 'norm'. Well, let me break this to you, it is not a 'norm', it is wrong. You won't know how many people you could offend with ONE ignorant comment.

I have always been the loud guy and I got into alot of trouble trying to 'educate' these ignorant people. I'm not saying that I'm not guilty of this but we all need each other to point out to us when we are being ignorant. Sometimes, I believe that if you can't speak knowledge into someone, you can try beating it into him. Let me repeat myself, ignorance is bliss..Just because you got it all easy doesn't mean others got it easy too. Just because you can doesn't mean everyone else could too.

Ignorance may seem harmless but the damage it does could be devastating, both physically and emotionally. If there is one thing we could do, it would be to be more sensitive towards another person and try and think from different perspectives before making a comment. And, don't wait for someone to fix what you saw broken..

Have a good day! and Merry Christmas! :)

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Are we really genuine?

Life is good, I'm writing this on a rainy Deepavali night because I can :P..ahaha, So yeah, its me again and I've been rumbling with this thought about sincerity and if we are really genuine people for some time now. I mean, everywhere I see, things are done in a structure, everything seem to have a process. For example, we normally do good to be blessed in return. But I was thinking to myself, what if the blessing quota was reduced or taken off completely? will we still wana do good? This has always been a question that I found hard to answer because at some points of my life, I struggled with such issues.

While many people tend to brush off this issue, I think this has been the fundamental thing that even God want us to fix. Many preachers often preach about how much God will bless us when we give or serve. They quote the bible and proclaim all the blessing that is stored if we do some good deed. Funny how they don't normally highlight how the bible emphasises more about the joy of giving, but instead, focus alot in the rewards in giving. Yes I agree that we will be blessed in return when we give or serve but to do it only because we will be blessed sounds a little,. i don't know..cunning? ;)

Many people have asked me what is the joy of giving, how do you give and not expect anything in return. I think most of us have the answer, its just that we choose not to look at it as such. Go out and you'll see a boyfriend buying flowers for his girl just to see her happy. You'll see a girlfriend baking cakes for her boyfriend to make him happy. Do you see what is really happening here? These people seem to be giving because they want to and not because they need to. Yes we all do know that their partner would appreciate and probably reward them but that's not the point. The point is, the heart of giving. A good boyfriend will buy flowers for his girl just to see her smile and not expect a kiss in return. A good girlfriend will bake cakes just to make her guy happy and not expect him to shower her with presents. This to me, demonstrates the joy of giving. The joy you get by giving something and just hoping for them to be happy with what was given. :)

Its kinda sad when I see people treating God as a business partner, I give You 10%, You give me back 7 fold. I mean, come to think of it, He is God and its not fair if we only limited Him as a business partner. The same goes to family and friends, nowadays, nothing seems genuine.. it is always like, 'I help you, so you help me back' or 'I was there when she needed me, now I need her to be here'. To me, such relationships are no more than what we have with our business people or in other words, our contacts. I also believe it tarnishes the name of Love when we do things like this.

I read about love the other day and the author was speaking about how you are actually committing yourself without any guarantees when you fall in love but you still choose to do it because at that very moment you felt the joy of love. The same goes with giving or helping or serving or whatever you may call it and this is the fundamental in living a fulfilling life.:)

So yeah, that was just my thought lah, I could be wrong. I hope you guys have a very good Deepavali! I'll write soon when I fell like it so till then lets just ponder on things like this to make sure we are actually genuine people. Say 'I love you', mean it and don't expect anything in return. Chances are, they felt your sincerity and say "I love you too' or they just smile. Either way, deep inside you know you did something genuine and you'll feel good about it. :) Have a good day!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Nothing Lasts?

For some weird reason, I feel like writing..Come to think of it, alot has happened. Good or bad I don't really know, what I do know is I've completely lost my sense of feeling. I just don't know what to feel anymore, everything is just so confusing. People come, show love, slow down when the emotion starts to fade then leave. Some come, show love,show hate,show pain, show anger then leave. Others come, show friendship, show life but in the end they all leave, one way or the other. This was always one thing I could never comprehend, why do people leave? Is that what we built all this for? all the sacrifice, all the time, all the energy? to just walk away in the end? it doesn't make any sense to me.

I always thought that good things lasts. I always dreamt of growing old together, sitting on the park bench playing cards during the sunset, walking down the street with our walking sticks and feeling like we just met a week ago. I always thought that we'd sit down and tell stories of hope and love to our grandkids. I somehow figured that we'd figure our way out through the hardships, through the pain. I kept telling myself that 30-40 years from now we'd still be together, cooking each other meals, fishing, watching a good ol'time movie. Guess that's what it always was, just a thought, a wish that would probably never come through.

I'm losing hope, as much as I choose not to I feel like it, I'm losing it. I'm becoming numb, too numb to feel anything at all. Its been ages since I last cried, people always say crying helps to restore one's well being..I don't even have that privilege, I forgot how to cry :) I forgot how does it feel like to be excited, to be nervous, to be alive..Yes I do alot of stuffs, stuffs I don't regret doing, instead, I love doing..Stuffs that would make another smile, that is the only satisfaction I get in life. And even for that, I don't really know what to feel anymore :)

But this is life, its not about one person, its about everyone else. I'll keep sacrificing, till I've got nothing to sacrifice anymore :)

Thursday, October 13, 2011


Sometimes, the words left unspoken are the most important words..sometimes, the eyes scream out what the mouth won't say :)

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. Rebels. Troublemakers. Round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do", says the man who changed the world - RIP Steve Job.