Its been ages since i came here..I thought i will never blog ever again but here I am..I bet everyone heard of the movie Dear John..Well, today im gona talk about John, a very good brother of mine :)
If you have been following my blog, you would notice i talked quite abit of John, my collegue..Well, hes more than just a collegue..hes a good friend, a brother who you know you can trust with all your secrets..Whats up with him? He is leaving us..:)
I only looked up to certain people all my life. First it was Johnma (my granduncle), then Ps. Eric ( my former youth pastor) and Goofy (my best friend with 4 legs) ..What is the similarities between all these people?? They are all wonderful people and they eventually left me for good..:) Now John is the one i really look up to..Im afraid I might just lose him as well,. All this while I never had a best friend cos I didnt wana feel what i felt when i had to give Goofy away when shifting.. I just couldnt take another separation from another close one..I had a distance with everyone i met from then on. That way, I didnt bother even if they left, not much at least...All that were until i met John..Never thought we will be so close in such a short period of time tho...I remember him teachng me stuffs when i first went to work.,We gradually became friends and then brothers..All those advises he gave, the way he thinks, the way he treats others..Hes a good guy laa,thats all i can say...a REALLY good guy :)..
I remember really connecting with him when he hugged me at SLC..He hugged me when I felt i didnt deserve anything at all..he hugged me when i felt nobody cared anymore..that made all the difference for me. Everything changed from then on...We worked together with the Youth team alongside Yasir and then we had Rick, another awesome dude who joined us. We were soo strong together but here,not even a year into what we planned..John is leaving, im not gona mention why..bt i would have done the same if I was in his shoes..to make things worse..Sunita, another girl who we are close with is leaving as well,.Rick is not sure about his position and only Sandy,Yasir and James is left...Suddenly i feel empty, it feels like all the ones im close with are leaving..
Every morning when i reach the office, the first thing i do is go to John's table and talk to him..Well, i've got about one month to find a new routine i guess..:) We used to work and play in the office bt with all these guys gone, i doubt anyone would wana play with me.. The only reason i have left to stay is the kids..I know its gona be tough, but I will have to take the baton from now..gotta run like i never did before,.I never cried over a friend leaving ever..well, John is more than a friend to me..He doesnt know anythng, so dont bother telling all this to him if you happen to read this :)..
Guess il have to move on, tho its easier said than done,.just the thought of coming to the office without John sitting there, popping his head up from the corner when we call him is hard enough..good people dont stay in one place do they..I secretly wish the month doesnt end..I secretly hope that this is not where it ends. I secretly hope i could rewind time and make sure everything was alright..Mybe its just me, good people cant stick around with bad ones can they :)...As much as i hate saying this, Im gona miss you John.. I just hope that you do well in whatever you do and continue doing good in other kids' lives :) If you are ever reading this, you are the best brother i ever had and ever will have.. I just hope we can still work together and change the nation..:) God Bless
If you have been following my blog, you would notice i talked quite abit of John, my collegue..Well, hes more than just a collegue..hes a good friend, a brother who you know you can trust with all your secrets..Whats up with him? He is leaving us..:)
I only looked up to certain people all my life. First it was Johnma (my granduncle), then Ps. Eric ( my former youth pastor) and Goofy (my best friend with 4 legs) ..What is the similarities between all these people?? They are all wonderful people and they eventually left me for good..:) Now John is the one i really look up to..Im afraid I might just lose him as well,. All this while I never had a best friend cos I didnt wana feel what i felt when i had to give Goofy away when shifting.. I just couldnt take another separation from another close one..I had a distance with everyone i met from then on. That way, I didnt bother even if they left, not much at least...All that were until i met John..Never thought we will be so close in such a short period of time tho...I remember him teachng me stuffs when i first went to work.,We gradually became friends and then brothers..All those advises he gave, the way he thinks, the way he treats others..Hes a good guy laa,thats all i can say...a REALLY good guy :)..
I remember really connecting with him when he hugged me at SLC..He hugged me when I felt i didnt deserve anything at all..he hugged me when i felt nobody cared anymore..that made all the difference for me. Everything changed from then on...We worked together with the Youth team alongside Yasir and then we had Rick, another awesome dude who joined us. We were soo strong together but here,not even a year into what we planned..John is leaving, im not gona mention why..bt i would have done the same if I was in his shoes..to make things worse..Sunita, another girl who we are close with is leaving as well,.Rick is not sure about his position and only Sandy,Yasir and James is left...Suddenly i feel empty, it feels like all the ones im close with are leaving..
Every morning when i reach the office, the first thing i do is go to John's table and talk to him..Well, i've got about one month to find a new routine i guess..:) We used to work and play in the office bt with all these guys gone, i doubt anyone would wana play with me.. The only reason i have left to stay is the kids..I know its gona be tough, but I will have to take the baton from now..gotta run like i never did before,.I never cried over a friend leaving ever..well, John is more than a friend to me..He doesnt know anythng, so dont bother telling all this to him if you happen to read this :)..
Guess il have to move on, tho its easier said than done,.just the thought of coming to the office without John sitting there, popping his head up from the corner when we call him is hard enough..good people dont stay in one place do they..I secretly wish the month doesnt end..I secretly hope that this is not where it ends. I secretly hope i could rewind time and make sure everything was alright..Mybe its just me, good people cant stick around with bad ones can they :)...As much as i hate saying this, Im gona miss you John.. I just hope that you do well in whatever you do and continue doing good in other kids' lives :) If you are ever reading this, you are the best brother i ever had and ever will have.. I just hope we can still work together and change the nation..:) God Bless
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